MEDITATIVE WRITING
Out of the dark - into the light Discovering that special place between the lines of our lives |
Strolling along the trail, leaves of the cottonwoods flutter... A kingfisher waits for a meal. Only 'seeing' and 'that which is'. |
Who I am is simple existence -- a breath round nothing -- -- a gust in the god* -- -- a wind -- an event without any ground that allows "what is" to be and "what will be" to become. |
Oh for times catching crawdads in the river,
reaching for butterflies on a leaf, a monarch, even
a tiger swallow tail. Off to the fruit stand for a red plum.
Swimming, garter snakes, tadpoles, and spiders.
These are the times I simply was - no fear, just being, growing.
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My heart is singing and has been doing so all day long, ever
since that first hop out of bed. It has been said that it isn't necessary
to go to the mill ponds, etc. to have our peace beyond peace.
Nevertheless, it is certainly nice to do so. And I did so today
-- right here in the city.
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Why is the personal self put down? I guess because it seems so temporary. Now it may or may not be so temporary, but the point is that we can become at ease with our "unknowing" or even with the possibility of the personal self disappearing for all of eterninty. We know not from where we came nor where we go, yet right now, everything seems just fine. It seems to me that everything was probably just fine before I was here and that everything will be fine after I am gone. A simple smile betrays the suspicion that I am the process and not merely the current manifestation. |
The refined I is like the morning star shining forth from a clear sky, pure and radiant, just as the sky is pure and empty, the emptiness allowing all to arise without hindrance. |
Waiting for the Light Rail
February, 1996
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Today I am a waterspider. I live on the surface, flitting about here and there. Most critters think the surface is not the place to be, but I think they're wrong. The surface is exciting. I never know what's going to pop up next. I can't go deep, and I can't go high. I'm so lucky I'm stuck right where I am. Most others miss the surface. I know because sometimes I glance up and see them. But usually I just watch the surface. After all, I'm a waterspider. |
Why is the personal self put down? I guess because it seems so temporary. Now it may or may not be so temporary, but the point is that we can become at ease with our "unknowing" or even with the possibility of the personal self disappearing for all of eterninty. We know not from where we came nor where we go, yet right now, everything seems just fine. It seems to me that everything was probably just fine before I was here and that everything will be fine after I am gone. A simple smile betrays the suspicion that I am the process and not merely the current manifestation. |
I walked through the front door onto the moist, gray slab of concrete, upon which I always park my van. The sky was mostly made up of the same color of gray, with a bulbous texture. ....Caw!, Caw!......Caw!.... I looked over my van to the top of the power pole on the edge of the street, my ears and eyes both compulsively drawn toward that sound of Caw, Caw......We all know that piercing sound of black as ink crow, and this crow's call had a special purpose today. This crow's call was for me, demandingly making plain the bare awareness of the entire environment about me --- streets..., neighbor's homes..., trees..., men on the roof across the way and down the block a bit.... and yes, the crow, too. And out of this bare awareness, I want to say that everything sparkled, but it wasn't a sparkling like that from a fireworks display. It was a freshness -- a freshness of each and every distinct object beheld, a freshness of seeing the striking distinctness of whatever happened to come into my vision, and sensing and knowing that this immaculate distinctness created a most perfect harmony (wholeness created from distinctness). And out of this freshness, distinctness, and harmony there came a joy. It was a sigh that says, "I'm so happy just to be here. I'm so happy just to be alive." So I thanked the crow and went my way knowing that I will not forget this crow for quite some time. |